說了再見

Say goodbye.... new song from jay chou... makes me think alot. maybe he's rite... she left. hmmmmm, sometimes experience=pain. true love? it's not an easy word and really hard to find. It needs alot of time, trust, secureness and courage from the other part. What does 'goodbye' means? Does it means 'meet againg someday'? or does it mean 'end of friendship'? Remember 2 years back, experience a 'goodbye'(end of friendship)without any clues of happening. The things they makes me hurt most is when i was waiting to say 'hi' to them, they just walk away and avoid from seeing me with the sms after leaving me (sorry i dun wanna let my mother worry. so i cnt be friend with u. Hope u understand......) What is ur feeling when u saw this msg sent to u? Was the WORST sms that i've received. What do u expect from me? expect me to smile and forgive u on doing this to me? Sorry i cnt do it. It was the most hurting word that i heard. And this is the word who kills the friendship that we'd built up since form 3.
(2nd case) When we met again at some places, it's just a question mark why? why is she doing this to me? Izzit i'm not good enough or not even qualify to be a friend of her? what is she thinking? Izzit she have to really follow what her mother told her to? ur goodbye...(sigh) is actually an avoiding word from seeing me... why is that avoiding act u have to do it to me? What are u thinking of? Even though we cnt couple up, can we be friends? Or u have the same thinking as the above ppl? You asked me to wait, and i've waited for u. Why are u breaking ur promise? I've agree to give u time. I've agree to do everything that u wanted me to do. I've done my best. Why is the answer u gave me was a sorry? WHY??!!!!!! Because i ain't wait long enough? Or i did not do my best? Do u really cnt feel my love to u?.......

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调 你说好不好

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱 一分一秒都好

This is the lsat time for me to say 'I LOVE YOU" to you. Although, u'r still important to me (as friend). god bless and all the best. let me help you when u need help...

tiring day.... 6/5/10

came across a song 心有独钟 by 陳曉東.... makes me recall of my secondary school story... hmmmm, story tat i will not forget.. very naive but, it's all come very naturally without pretending. time goes very fast and without noticing it's been 2 years i din talk to my dear friend(not a chance to ask 'how are u?').... sometimes when u less expect the things will come to you.... i tend to forget bout her but things just not getting done by what i wan...

it starts by an unexpected and shocking phone call. it sounds 'do u know that she....... and i thought that u'll keep in touch with her since u WAS the closest friend of her when we're in secondary school..... so can u tell me what happened? Please let me know when u confirm of the incident....' this is what my friend called me for....

things goes worse when i get to know that what my friend told me was really really true... the less expected word i heard from the confirmation news is (i think u better dun care and dun bother bout this case, because u had a story with her last time.... it'll make her recall back of it and it'll make her worse... so please let it be... and DON'T ask...) what is the meaning of it'll make her worse?